I haven't been good at all at keeping up this blog. With a lot of projects I start I tend to get bored with them and stop without warning. Much like my trips to the gym, but instead of boredom I'd rather sit at home and watch TV. Sometimes I think I have a TV addiction... I really do feel better after working out, but its the part of making myself do it that's hard. I really should not have decided to take that Astronomy class this semester. It's been keeping me from doing what I want to do and has even kept me from working out when I wanted to. The past couple of weeks I've been better at hitting the gym. I really don't have an excuse because we have a gym in our house. Now you're probably just thinking that it's nothing but pure laziness on my part, and you're probably right! But after working a full work day and coming home to make dinner, I'm beat. Really it shouldn't be that bad because I have a desk job right?! That's what I try and tell myself, but for almost 4 years the other part of me has won out. In order to stop the cycle I've started to put a real effort into getting back in shape.
I'm actually trying to take a cue from my husband for once. He always tells it like it is and honestly doesn't care what anybody thinks. Some people thinks that's rude, but there's an art to being truthful and not hurtful. Recently I have lost quite a few friends due to my people pleasing problem. Yes, it really is a problem. Instead of being truthful with one friend and telling her what an awful person she really is, I've told her she's right in her line of thinking. If you're out there and you're reading this, I'm telling you now YOU ARE AN AWFUL FRIEND. You're selfish, rude, unforgiving, bitter, an attention whore, a shopaholic( and that's why you're family is so broke and can't even live paycheck to paycheck), a liar, and a really bad listener. Not telling her the truth ended up biting me in the butt. Now she thinks I'm rude and a "negative person". She truly has a talent in making everything into a big ordeal. I was slowly fading her out of my life, when my husband made a comment on Facebook about her always having to have the attention on her. Me being my true self tried to stay out of the situation, and told her when she so rudely texted me that she needed to take it up with him and that I was staying out of it. Who would have ever thought that the "Unfriend" button on Facebook would mean so much?! Oh, that "block" button is even better! I wish I could say I got to push those buttons first on her, but at this point it doesn't even matter. The only good thing about this whole thing is that I feel like I'm getting reacquainted with a friend that I had lost touch with. I do wish one of my good friends wouldn't have abandoned me. I don't know what's up with her. We literally were best friends for the longest time, and would spend every weekend doing something together. Now she is MIA. I know life changes and people get busy but, it's literally been almost 3 months since I've seen her or talked to her. As my circle of friends closes down to almost none, and my husband becomes increasingly busy with getting his masters degree I begin to feel very out of the loop and alone. I'm really feeling the need to branch out and find more things to do and make new friends, because I'm starting to get the feeling of isolation.
I have decided that at the end of every post I will end it with a quote that I find either interesting or meaningful. This quote really sums up my past couple of months, and validates it.
“True friendship multiplies the good in life and divides its evils. Strive to have friends, for life without friends is like life on a desert island..to find one real friend in a lifetime is good fortune; to keep him is a blessing.” -Baltasar Gracian
