Man down!

Hello blog that no one but me reads!  Haha.  This past week I have been learning how to deal with hurt feelings, and stubborness.  Partly mine, partly select members of my family.  I have gotten to the point where I can give it all to God, and let him take care of it.  It took me a whole weekend plus a day to get to that point.  But I am finally here, and it feels good! 
The hubby is currently at Fort Bragg in North Carolina, for AT (annual training).  The past two weeks have been hard to be without him, but he'll be home in six days!  He's ready to be home, and can't wait to eat real food and sleep in a real bed!  I don't know if I'm ready to share my king size bed though.  I have been enjoying having the bed all to myself lately! 
Nothing really new to report at the moment.  Same ole' same ole'.  I am excited that the new season of Trueblood is getting ready to start!  Because I finally got to the read the last Sookie Stackhouse book last week.  Curtis started reading the Game of Thrones book series.  I'm hoping he can finish them fast because I'm in need of a new book to read!  This Summer should be full of good reading!

"Spiteful words can hurt your feelings, but silence breaks your heart."

"That old saying, how you always hurt the one you love, well, it works both ways."- Fight Club

"There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting, and just be more careful about who you trust next time around."
 

Cleopatra I am not...

I could never live in Egypt!  I complain about our hot 90°-100° Summers here.  Cleopatra must have been one tough woman if she could live in Egypt and still be a the most desirable woman in Egypt.  If put in her sandles I would so not be desirable!   I cannot not make sweltering heat look good...  I would be a cranky sweaty mess!  Hence why I consider myself the world's worst Mexican.  Since our A/C went out a few days ago, It has been a steady 83° in our house.  Over the weekend I spent most of my time sitting in front of a fan in a tank top and shorts.  I took more baths this weekend than necessary just so I could sit in cold water.  I even sat with my feet in a cold bucket of water in front of the fan Friday night.  Partially because a large bottle of shampoo fell on my toe and it was swollen and bruised, but the other part because I was so stinkin' hot!  Thankfully we will hopefully have the A/C fixed by the end of this week.  My mom is going to come over while we're both at work and wait for the HVAC guy.  Mom's are awesome like that. 

What a busy little bee you are...

It has been awhile since I've last written.  I've been so busy I can't even tell you what all I've been up to.  At least my house is clean!  The bathroom remodel still hasn't happened...  Which is kinda disappointing, but it will happen soon.  We still have one working bathroom at the moment and it's really frustrating.  The only nice thing about it is that I really only have one bathroom to clean at the moment. 

Right now I miss my dad.  I guess I should say I miss my daddy, not my dad.  When I called him daddy that's when everything was good.  When I got older and called him dad was when I realized that he's a jerk.  And jerk is putting it mildly.  There are good things about him, but the bad really outweighs the good.  Considering we've had a rocky relationship at best my entire life is the only thing that keeps me from talking to him now.  I think it's been close to 4 years since I've talked to him, and I'm not going to let myself get stuck in the sentimental.  For the past 10 years I've had an on and off relationship with him.  I guess he really doesn't care about me if he hasn't tried to talk to me much over that time.  I can't tell if he just doesn't want to admit he's wrong and apologize just because he doesn't like to be wrong, or if it's just because he doesn't really care.  I guess I will never know.  I'm just having a weak moment...  I absolutely hate feeling vulnerable, and this is the last time I let him make me feel this way.

Creeper moment of the day:  While I'm talking to a old man at work today; said creeper tells me that I have "the most beautiful brown eyes".  What am I suppose to say to that?!  All I could muster up was "thanks"...  And to think the lady with him didn't look embarrassed or bothered by his comment boggles my mind.  Creeper alert!

I'm no model lady. A model's just an imitation of the real thing. -Mae West

Pretty nails

I found this great tutorial for some banging looking nails.  I hope you enjoy!  I know I will be going to get some new fun colors to paint my nails!  Courtesy of the Cherry Blossom Girl

                                                       Cut five paper hole stickers in half.

Apply the base.

 Apply the first nailpolish color, and let dry.

When dry apply stickers on the nails.

Apply the second nailpolish(generally one coat is enough).

 Apply a few drying drops,so they are dry in seconds!

When your nails are dry take the stickers off.

 Apply top coat.

                                                                                Done!

The plague

I know I'm totally grossing my co-workers out with the way I'm hacking and blowing my nose every two minutes.  Oh well...  It is gross, and I have to deal with it personally...  My poor nose is so raw from all the rough Kleenex's I've used!  I would love to be able to breathe through both nostrils very soon.  I need to get myself some apple cider vinegar and honey drink.  My mom swears it helps you feel better, and we all know our mommy's really do know best!  I did feel well enough to work out on the elliptical for 30 minutes.  My throat hurt so bad afterwards but at least I got through it. 
Last night my husband and I had a great little play date with my favorite nephew!  They say you aren't suppose to have favorites but considering my older sister has chosen not to be in my life I never get to see my other favorite nephew.  That's neither here nor there...  Little V man is almost 3 years old now!  He's truly the most handsome and smart 2 year old I know.  He helped his Tia do laundry(he honestly loves watching the washer and dryer do their thing), get the dishwasher started, and we ate delicious ghetti(spaghetti)!  He played trucks with his Tio and eventually ended up trying to play PlayStation.  We always have so much fun with the baby man.  He's truly a joy to be around.


"Children will not remember you for the material things you provided, but for the feeling that you cherished them." -Richard L. Evans

MHF seeking live in skilled plumber and all around handy man

I'm starting to feel a little like Noah these days.  It seems that the plumbing in my house is out to get me!  While getting ready to take a shower last night my husband found out that our toilet in our hall bathroom is leaking onto the floor...  So all in all we can take a shower in the hall bathroom, but we can't use the toilet.  We can use the toilet in our master bathroom, but not the shower.  Next thing you know we'll have a leak in the sinks in our bathrooms...  I hope I'm not jinxing myself!  The saying "when it rains it pours" is a very close description of my life these days!  I'm tired of paying the plumber to come out to fix our plumbing.  I just want everything to quit breaking! 
I think I'm going to start a ongoing tally of how many people I know that are pregnant!  Two more friends of mine have announced that they are pregnant, making it a total of 12 people that my husband and I know that are pregnant.  I'm really starting to feel like the odd woman out.  I think I'm finally at the point where I officially have baby fever.  Which that reminds me I have a baby shower to go to this Saturday. 


"Don't pray when it rains if you don't pray when the sun shines." - Satchel Paige

The most hated word:Deployment

As long as my husband is in the military I will hate that damn word.  It means dinners, holidays, birthdays, anniversaries, movies, bad days, good days, weekends, and out of town trips spent alone.  When you want to talk to him you can't, and sometimes when he can you can't.  It especially sucks when you have a 7 hour time difference, and then he could either be working days or nights...   Yes, there are things out there like Skype that make it a little more bearable.  But any military wife will tell you it's not enough to see and hear them.  When you're having a bad day, and you just need a hug they aren't there to give you one.  During his last deployment I found myself clinging to my baby nephew who was one at the time.  This time is going to be different for more than one reason.  His last deployment I was able to move out of our apartment and move into my mom's house.  Which was great because I saved money on rent, and got to be with close family.  But we bought a house as soon as he got back, so there's no moving in with mom this time.  This time I'm going at it all alone.  There won't be anyone to come home to, not even a pet.  We have been talking about starting a family within this year, but I don't want to raise a child alone.  I don't want my husband to miss out on the very special first year of our child's life.  I know people do it all the time, and I know I am a strong enough woman that I could if I wanted to.  I have had some women say that having them gone the first year of a child's life is a lot easier.  When they are older they can actually notice the absence and remember what it felt like to have dad gone.  This last deployment I felt as though my friends weren't there for me.  I honestly felt abandoned by them.  I had no one to talk to and connect with other than close family.  I have even less friends, and the ones I do have are busy with their families.  I don't think they should be there to coddle me, but it would be nice to have a good support system if I do need someone.  I really don't know what this next year will bring.  I know sometime in 2012 I will be going it alone for a year.